At first glance, I probably look happy in the pic. I am not. I am standing up behind my chair, because I needed to back away from the screen. I'm wondering if what I just wrote could possibly be true.
If it is, I can hope again.
Here:
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My father.
He’s
got gray-blue contacts, is shaved bald, has lightened his skin and changed his posture--but it’s him. I am sure of it.
My heart’s slamming against my ribs, but he glances at me without interest, then looks at the next row of passengers. I yawn and slide down in my seat for a fake nap as he walks past.
He
looks even more haunted than I remembered.
I
am about as tall as he is now.
That feels strange.
My father is a monster, I know that.
My father is a monster, I know that.
He made my mother leave and he fucked me up
past repair, I know that, too.
But I
saw him.
And he
didn’t see me.
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